Oops...Happy & Droopy All At Once.

Here I go again, slacking. So sorry. I have been a tad busy.

Here is the happy part...

For those who don't know, I just got married on October 1st!!! YAY!!!

As luck would have it, it rained on my outdoor wedding festivities! Go figure. I was always under the impression that if it rained on your wedding day, it was bad luck. I guess I am wrong...which is good to know, for I could use the better luck in my future. Then again, couldn't we all, right? Can't really complain though, for it was just drizzle and BEAUTIFUL!!! I love the rain and felt at home standing under it while saying my vows. It was refreshing and rejuvinating to the soul.

While I was standing at the window up in the bedroom watching people gather for the ceremony outside, I made a comment about the rain and how I was hoping for it to stall during the ceremony and pictures, when someone said "The rain is Tears From Heaven" I can't remember who it was that said that. Just having the thought/feeling that he WAS there with me, made me feel whole...even if for a second.

Here is the droopy part...

To help those who have no clue what I am referring to, here is the Readers Digest version...

My son, Mikey was killed by a drunk driver in 1998. He was 4 1/2. Needless to say my heart was shattered and will forever be missing pieces. One of the songs I had chosen to have played at his funeral was Tears In Heaven. As most know, Eric Clapton wrote that song for his son when he died, so naturally I found it fitting.

My life since has been an ongoing roller coaster ride, it took years, but it gradually started to look up. I had my second son Lucas, who is now 18 months old. He constantly keeps us on our toes. He is one of the most amazing kids I have EVER had the privilage to have in my life. We call him our little Jim Carrey! Then there is Brad, my husband. Someone who was always there for me no matter what, when or where. He is amazing too. Having the two of them in my life has filled some of the major gaps in my heart, however, not having Mikey here in physical form just doesn't quite complete me.

So, for those who know me know that I haven't felt whole since April 11, 1998. As a part of me died on that day.

Another part of me was born on April 14, 2005 and with that, I am able to laugh again.

...Here's to moving forward but never forgetting.